Even though I struggle a lot and I don’t understand things, God is still good. Sometimes I’m overwhelmed with how undeserving I am of God’s love. I can’t love myself; yet He loved me enough to die for me. I am blessed to have a relationship with my Savior.
A culture of honesty can only come from a culture of grace, because people are only honest when they have hope of an undeserved love. Grace then is messy, gritty, real, raw, and reckless — meaning it makes us more human and not less.
I’m learning that it’s okay to be frustrated with where I’m at. I’m learning that God doesn’t keep a list of all the times I’m upset with Him to hold over my head when He wants to. It’s okay to ask questions and be unsure because a relationship will have conflict and it will have low points but it is from those moments that deeper intimacy grows. And God will always resolve. He won’t leave the conflict hanging because He is not an unfinished story. I’m learning that even though I may not get my answers, I will always have Him and He is answer enough. He is the answer to the questions I should have been asking all along.